thanks to anzac day i've had a FIVE day weekend... and yet here i am, late tuesday afternoon, already planning on waking up at 4:30 am to finish my essays. typical.
life has been so unexciting in recent weeks that it's nearly painful. in the span of a couple days, my living plans for next semester fell through (meaning i will be spending my EIGHTH semester in a dorm-style residence. just kill me.) and i found out that studying abroad is a no-go. needless to say, i have been in an absolutely horrific mood the past bit.
i think i mentioned in my last post that i joined choralfest. it's sort of a joke, but i've met some cool people. i also made the decision to start a 2-week game of mafia at college. i invited about 30 friends on facebook... and a couple hours later, over 50 people had rsvped "yes." i ended up having to cap the game at 100 people in an effort to avoid a complete organizational nightmare. i've actually met SO many people through it and people are getting really excited for it. i think the boys are going to get pretty into it :) some of the assassination assignments couldn't be any funnier... so i can't wait to witness them. "you must kill ________ with a handful of glitter in the toilet." somehow a game revolving around fake killing has at least partially pulled me out of my funk. haha don't know what that says about me...
it's hard to be stuck in college when i feel like i could be spending my time on far more important, fun and exciting things. life made me so happy last year--i was ecstatic to wake up in the mornings. i'm learning that elation like that is hard to recreate when my life has fallen into a monotonous cycle of worksheets and gossiping. i keep telling myself that i only have two years left, but at the moment that feels a bit similar to "forever." it's been over 2 months since i've been on an airplane... which i think, actually, is longer than i've gone in the past year. my brain has been set on the "next destination" mode for so long that it's going crazy trying to segue into the "right now" mode. it's like life claustrophobia. i think maybe i'll go to melbourne for a long weekend, if for no other reason than to change things up a bit. i'm also going to see if i can get a position volunteering a couple hours a week with an organization called "radio lollipop." depends mainly on how far away the hospital is by public transport and if i can get a blue card. hopefully it'll all fall into place!
i know this post makes me sound ungrateful, but i definitely am not: i have an incredible life. it's just hard to compare it to those glimpses of pure bliss last year where all the things that were supposed to matter did and all the things that weren't didn't even cross my mind. it's unfortunate that you have to be a college grad to join the peace corps.
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