i'm not ready

some pictures...

my favorite bromance. oskar manages to blink in every single picture, but he promised to keep his eyes open for this one :)

my first friend in oz

some of the girls. most delicious, dangerous shots ever.

i'm going to miss this boy :(

getting ready to go out

thomas and me

6 days until i come home. and it feels terrible. i actually could not be any less excited.

i've basically spent the past few days drinking too much wine, spending lots of time with people and tanning by the pool. it's a rough life.

the boys and i bought our tickets to germany in january! i fly into amsterdam and they're meeting me at the airport... then we're flying onto munich together. thomas will meet us there and we'll spend friday/saturday in munich, sunday/monday skiing and snowboarding and then fly back to holland on tuesday, where i'll be until that next sunday. it is going to be amazing.

the fact that i get to see the boys again in 2 months is the only thing keeping me from "accidentally" missing my flight. which i may have to consider anyway. i stupidly booked my ticket for 6:30 am on saturday. everybody else has a week to 2 months to hang out and travel. and lucky them, they all get to go party, sunbathe and spend time with each other (finals free) at monnie's house for a few days once we move out of union. i'll be on a plane headed towards folding clothes for high maintenance customers and graves disease making me absolutely insane. damn it. the boys don't finish finals until thursday, so they're still quasi-busy studying until then... and i can't go out friday night since i have to leave college at 4:30 am. so that doesn't leave us much more time for fun :( basically, it's pretty much the most depressing thing ever. mom, don't be surprised if you arrive at the airport and my bags show up but i don't.

having been to 5 colleges now, you think i'd be a pro at saying goodbye to people. apparently that is not the case. the problem with falling in love with people and places around the world is that the pieces of your heart become scattered and it's never quite whole again.

i was trying to fly but i couldn't find wings, but you came along and changed everything. you lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around... --taylor swift