can't even

packing sucks. it's 86 degrees out today, which makes for sweaty trips up and down lots of stairs. at least it's not 98 degrees, which it hit the other day. and having a boy means not having to carry heavy bags/boxes :)

i can't believe i'm leaving tomorrow. basically, i hate it. and there is no other way to put it. i should have changed my ticket. knowing i'm rushing towards retail jobs and graves disease isn't helping matters. i can't even bring myself to say goodbye.

music comes on like the end of a sad movie. it's the kind of ending you don't really want to see 'cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down. and i don't know what to be without you around. --taylor swift

i'm weird 'cause i hate goodbyes. i got misty eyes as they said 'farewell.' but i know where several are, if my thoughts get real bizarre. --owl city

i'm not ready

some pictures...

my favorite bromance. oskar manages to blink in every single picture, but he promised to keep his eyes open for this one :)

my first friend in oz

some of the girls. most delicious, dangerous shots ever.

i'm going to miss this boy :(

getting ready to go out

thomas and me

6 days until i come home. and it feels terrible. i actually could not be any less excited.

i've basically spent the past few days drinking too much wine, spending lots of time with people and tanning by the pool. it's a rough life.

the boys and i bought our tickets to germany in january! i fly into amsterdam and they're meeting me at the airport... then we're flying onto munich together. thomas will meet us there and we'll spend friday/saturday in munich, sunday/monday skiing and snowboarding and then fly back to holland on tuesday, where i'll be until that next sunday. it is going to be amazing.

the fact that i get to see the boys again in 2 months is the only thing keeping me from "accidentally" missing my flight. which i may have to consider anyway. i stupidly booked my ticket for 6:30 am on saturday. everybody else has a week to 2 months to hang out and travel. and lucky them, they all get to go party, sunbathe and spend time with each other (finals free) at monnie's house for a few days once we move out of union. i'll be on a plane headed towards folding clothes for high maintenance customers and graves disease making me absolutely insane. damn it. the boys don't finish finals until thursday, so they're still quasi-busy studying until then... and i can't go out friday night since i have to leave college at 4:30 am. so that doesn't leave us much more time for fun :( basically, it's pretty much the most depressing thing ever. mom, don't be surprised if you arrive at the airport and my bags show up but i don't.

having been to 5 colleges now, you think i'd be a pro at saying goodbye to people. apparently that is not the case. the problem with falling in love with people and places around the world is that the pieces of your heart become scattered and it's never quite whole again.

i was trying to fly but i couldn't find wings, but you came along and changed everything. you lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around... --taylor swift

i can't stand the countdown

halloween: elf and cowboy

anna and seb, fellow j-floor mates

timmy's crazy/creepy hat

the gang before heading over to jack's for halloween. vampire, fairy, marilyn, native american, gi jane, cowboy, elf, random weirdo, harry potter!

my favorite boys :)

trying out timmy's new camera

whoa

as of tomorrow, i will have 2 weeks left. INSANE. time is just flying by.

life has been pretty sweet recently. i've been sick and this week is SWOTVAC (studying without teaching vacation), which means no classes and lots of studying, but i am still just enjoying the ride. i realized the other day that i had mixed up my bio and chem final so i had a brief moment of panic, but it will all be fine.

some people are freaking out about finals and majorly stressing. i just keep reminding myself of the kids at peace house and how unbelievably lucky i am to be here. i'm focusing on passing classes but continuously reminding myself how much more there is to life than majors and gpas. i don't want to spend my whole life chasing the american (or in this case, australian) dream. worrying about school will lead to worrying about careers which will lead to worrying about more more more money. so why waste time worrying?

even though i'm sad to leave everyone, break should be pretty awesome. firstly, i get to see picabo, which will probably be the highlight :) a friend from my fiji trip, tamara, is going to be spending thanksgiving with my fam. then patty and lil, 2 close friends from CC, will be in MN near christmas. georgie will be flying in from the UK for new years and then i head off to holland/germany to see the boys! it should be sweet.

i don't have too much to update on. just trying to squeeze in lots of friend time and sunshine time. i spend most of my time just hanging out with rob and timmy. OH the other day i had the best 2 games of pool of my life. to most people this wouldn't be a big deal, but even making contact with the white ball is usually an accomplishment for me. basically, i was awesome, if i do say so myself :) it's been in the high 80s and sunny all week, which is great except when you have to work in an un-airconditioned room all day! luckily this weekend is supposed to be cloudy, so i won't be distracted by thoughts of the beach... or melting. i am hoping there's snow on the ground when i get home...

i love my life.

be strong in the lord and never give up hope. you're gunna do great things, i already know. god's got his hand on you, so don't live life in fear. forgive and forget but don't forget why you're here. take your time and pray. these are the words i would say. --sidewalk prophets

without a warning, i realize your laugh is the best sound i have ever heard... and everytime you smile, i smile. and every time you shine, i'll shine for you... take a deep breathe then jump then fall into me. --taylor swift