i'll never rest

first, some pictures from adelaide:

adelaide was certainly relaxing. it was nice to be in a house (that had a kitchen!) with people who are basically extended family. that being said, i've spent the past few hours looking at everybody else's facebook pictures... scuba diving the great barrier reef, sky diving, camping, road tripping, 4 wheeling, sailing, snorkeling with sting rays, bbqing, seeing a million cool animals, cage diving with sharks, watching the sun rise... i went shopping. needless to say, i'm a little jealous! it also reaffirmed how blessed i am to have experienced so much in the world already. living on my own, away from the suburbs in foreign and new and challenging places has helped me grow so much more than staying home and playing it safe ever could have.

i am in desperate need of an adventure or some sort of excitement in my life. it is hard to be on such an incredible, different and amazing continent and not see any of the cool parts. instead, i've seen kmart from a city bus and bar after same old bar. i've lived in australia for almost 3 months now and have seen the ocean twice. something is severely wrong with that.

i want to walk through this doorway. i want to open my mind. i want to pledge my allegiance to all i can find. i want a car that will crash through the barriers to a road no one knows. i want to feel less control, want to bend and i want to land far from home.

the revolution of the earth around the sun is the perfect lesson of how it should be. so if i cannot learn to journey and return, to never rest 'til i've seen all i can see...

i want to learn a completely new language, one i don't understand. i want to help someone lost, someone helpless, with the strength of my hand. i want to come to the base of a statue built before they counted the years, and there i'll fall with my face in my hands and cry and feel their hope in my tears.

the revolution of the earth around the sun is the perfect lesson of how it should be...

train rides and pastures colliding... colors and customs i've never seen... i know... i will stumble but time is precious my friend.

those who journey can easily understand. the more they see the more they'll learn, the more that they will be. so this i swear to you and this i swear to me, i'll never rest 'til i've seen all i can see.

i want to know where the strength of a person lies, in their past or their future. is it in the way they hurt or they love themselves or is it all an illusion? i want to crawl from this skin that i'm painted in... body, please let it give. i want to find the creator of all good things and ask what it means to live. --brendan james